what you're most afraid of is worthwhile;

She will chase you around for a while, 
but there's going to a day 
when she's going to stop running in circles around you. 
She's going to get over you 
and at that moment 
you're going to wish you had let her catch you.

headed for a heart heart heartbreak;

Dear Cameron,

You broke everything inside of me. I didn't know I could feel this way, especially this deep. Avoiding me is just making it worse. Why can't you just own up to what you did and just deal with it? Are you afraid that it may take a while for me to forgive you or are you just afraid that I won't forgive you at all? You aren't the boy I fell for, you aren't the boy I let my walls down for. You changed. Somewhere in the two months that you have been "hanging" with your "new friends" have been a disaster. I was always there for you when you needed me, even when you were completely mean to me. And the one day, the one day I needed you, you failed to do so. I didn't think you could be just like Branden. Just like my father. But guess what? You proved me right. You're just like them. You know what hurts the most? I gave it up to you and you make it seem like that's all you wanted. I believe that's why I'm crying so much. You make me cry. Every. Day. Ignoring won't do you any justice, it's just going to make it worse for you on your part when you have to see me on the weekends. When you know you're going to have to look at my face and see how much you've hurt me. I'm not ashamed of how much I hurt, I'm not going to hide it neither. Of course, I'm going to be nice to you. Of course, I'm going to keep it civil and so are you. But you will not flirt with me when we work. You will not favor her over me just because of the bullshit that comes out of everyone else's mouth. I worked so hard to not get hurt again, to feel good about myself, to make sure I let someone like you in. Someone like you when you were really you. All I ask for is an apology. That's all. Why can't you give it to me? It's  breaking, aching and all I want to do is tear my heart out. Doesn't that matter? I could have fallen in love with you, I could have given you everything. If you would just apologize and make things right, I'd try too. But you're not trying and you won't try anymore. You run away, you give up. Ever think about my feelings and not just yours? I never told you how I felt and I vowed to tell you so I don't regret it, but you never gave me the chance. Are you afraid that you might feel the same way too? I'm sorry that you're afraid because I was afraid too. I wish you could trust me enough. I wish you were here. I wish I was happy again; happy with you.

something old;

First off, I'd like to thank all of my friends, without you I'd probably be dead.
Second, I really hate backstabbers, liars, cheaters and the like.

Lastly, for all of you backstabbers that are trying to ruin my relationship[s] with certain people in the end it's not going to work. Karma will get you and I will be laughing.  It's getting old and annoying; I'm not going to tolerate it.  If you think this makes you feel any better, seriously, please stop. I cannot stand it and I'm on to you.  Just because he didn't pick you, does not mean that you can try and sabotage our relationship. I apologize that you're not his type, but in all honesty there's someone out there for everyone. Why can't you just accept it and move on? He was my first, therefore it kind of sucks that I can't even have a lasting relationship that could have possibly ended or we could have kept it going if you hadn't ruined it. Now I'm left feeling empty, alone, and sad. The one person that I gave a damn about, that I let my walls come down for YOU tried to take away. Consider this you're warning; you keep doing this, I stop talking to you. Karma's a bitch, and she won't slow down when she's running over you.

something new;

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong.
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead.
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!